Quarterly Life Crisis

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop
going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are
many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year
or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are
now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe,
those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't
exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you
have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What
you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and
aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are
as confused as you. You look at your job...and it is not even
close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are
looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to
start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have
gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself
judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you
have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding
things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One
minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and
cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and
scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try
and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that
the past is drifting further and further away, and there is
nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get
your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such
damage to you. Or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet
anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or
maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot
figure out why you are doing this because you know that you
aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start
to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to
look pathetic. You do it though, and the next day regret it,
stating over and over..."this is my last time.” You go through the
same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your
friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a
decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a
life for yourself...and while winning the race would be great,
right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not
realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in
our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we
can too figure this whole thing out…